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05 November 2011 @ 04:05 am
fic : What Did You See? (Hotch/Reid, NC-17)  
Title: What Did You See?
Author: Bow (bowie28)
Pairing: Hotch/Reid
Rating: NC-17
Spoiler: Up to 7x06 "Epilogue"
Word count: 710
Beta: None. Didn’t want to bother anyone with this little thing.

Summary: Spencer finally got over The Lie.

Author’s Note: Just a little something I wrote for the latest episode "Epilogue." Plus due to the suckery that is my country right now, I wrote porn to cheer myself up.  

What Did You See?

Spencer’s hand finally found Aaron’s erection as they stumbled through the dimly lit hallway.

“It’s two in the morning,” Aaron hissed as they passed Jack’s room.  

“I don’t see how’s that relevant,” Spencer replied, hand inside Aaron’s sweatpants now.

Back pressed against his bedroom door, Aaron bit down a groan, fumbling for the handle. Once he found it, he was pushed through the doorway before Spencer closed the door and locked it.

On the bed, Spencer was on top of him, kissing him like a starving man. Aaron knew the feeling all too well. It had been months after all.

“I don’t care anymore,” Spencer said between kisses.

Aaron’s hand on Spencer’s nape froze.

“I don’t care that you lied,” Spencer said, this time looking Aaron in the eye. “Emily died. I died. You died.” Spencer’s fingers caressed Aaron’s cheek. “Yet here we are.”

“It hurts to be lied to, but it’s nothing--nothing compared to knowing what it feels like to have this and could lose it,” Spencer said. “I know that now, Aaron.”

Not knowing what to say, Aaron said the only thing he had been saying, the only thing he could say. “I’m sorry.”

“Then make it up to me,” Spencer told him.

And Aaron did. Oh how Aaron did.

To have Spencer in his mouth again, to hear those noises Spencer made, the noises he induced, it was a miracle he didn’t come right then and there. Spencer whined, cursed, begged, and when he came, it was a surprise, a surprise that lasted so long Aaron couldn’t help but feel proud a little.

“I love you,” Aaron heard himself say.

Spencer opened his eyes, still a little glazed from the ecstasy.
They had never discussed this before, and the words weren’t planned. But none of that mattered now, not when Aaron realized it was the truth.

“I love you,” Aaron repeated.

Spencer, head cleared now, opened his mouth to say something, but nothing came. Aaron didn’t know what he expected to hear.

Instead he watched Spencer watching him, pulling him in, kissing him, tasting him until he ached for Spencer’s touch.

Spencer smiled his knowing smile and pushed Aaron onto the mattress. Settling between Aaron’s thighs, Spencer leaned over and captured Aaron’s lips, sucking them into his mouth until Aaron gave in and let out a desperate groan.



“I need…”

“I know.”

When Spencer finally took Aaron’s cock in his hand, Aaron might have sobbed a little.


“Please, Spence…”


And when Spencer finally took Aaron deep inside him, Aaron was sure he cried a tear.

Spencer kissed him like he wanted to consume him whole, and the way Spencer moved above him felt that way too.

“Oh, God,” Aaron cried out as Spencer’s teeth found that spot on his neck and Spencer’s hips found that perfect angle.  
Aaron missed this. Spencer’s skin on his. Spencer’s scent all over him.

“You feel so good,” Spencer whispered in his ear. “So good like this.”

Suddenly Aaron needed to touch Spencer everywhere. “Please.”

Spencer smiled down at him, understood completely. “Take me.”

The next thing he knew, he had Spencer under him and he was driving into that sensation he realized he’d grown too attached to now.   

“I meant it,” Aaron said, never stopped moving. “When I said I…”

“I know,” Spencer nodded, hands pulling Aaron in even further.

“I really…”

“Please, Aaron…”

And then it happened, just how Aaron had expected it would be. Explosive. Blinding. Never-ending. The sound of his name on Spencer’s tongue over and over was just a bonus.

“What did you see?”

Aaron turned his head to where Spencer was now lying, warm, naked, equally sated.

“When you died. Did you see the light? Was it warm? Or was it dark and cold?”

It took Aaron a minute to reply. “I didn’t see anything.”

Spencer frowned at this. “Nothing?”

“Nothing,” Aaron recalled. “Everything was just… gone.”

Spencer still frowned, but said nothing this time. Instead he put his arm around Aaron and rested his head on Aaron’s chest.

“I’m sorry,” Spencer said, idly running his hand on Aaron’s stomach.

“Don’t worry about it,” Aaron cooed, playing with Spencer’s hair.

“I mean it too, Aaron,” Spencer said, looking up this time. “I love you.”



Current Location: somewhere dry
schnuffie: CM Hotch Blümchenschnuffie on November 4th, 2011 09:16 pm (UTC)
Bow: CM : Hotchner in shadesbowie28 on November 5th, 2011 07:27 am (UTC)
Ana: CM :: H/R husky/kittenaqua_zephyrus on November 4th, 2011 10:49 pm (UTC)

So. Beautiful. No joke.
Bow: CM : H/R must touchbowie28 on November 5th, 2011 07:40 am (UTC)
Aww, thank you! I love that original artwork in your icon so much. <3333
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Bow: CM : H/R with coffeebowie28 on November 5th, 2011 07:48 am (UTC)
I love assertive Reid. There's not enough fics featuring Reid that way. He more than deserves that.

I didn't even think about Heaven/Hell scenario until you mentioned it. Probably because I'm kind of atheist as well? (I'm a passive buddist) But I can see it now, and yes, it sucks if they suggested that Emily was going to hell. For me when I watched that scene, I felt it was more about Emily's state of mind at that moment. Reid felt more at peace with his death somehow. I don't know. As for Hotch, I took it from his quote at the end of the episode where Foyet was waiting for him in his place, when he said, "Sometimes the day just ends."

I know I haven't commented on your Hotch/Reid series, but I LOVE it. It's one of a few good ones I've read in a long time. I hope to see more of it soon. There's not enough well-written Hotch/Reid fics in the world.

Thanks so much!
The Reverend Kuria Dalmatia: Hotch-Reid red sweaterkuriadalmatia on November 5th, 2011 12:34 am (UTC)
Beautiful and aching and just ... precise. There are few in the fandom that can convey the preciseness of the Hotch/Reid relationship and distill it to the perfection that you do.

Thank you for sharing. This was just wonderful.

And I agree with spinner33 that it was disappointing that Emily had the pall of Hell over her ...
Bow: CM : Reid/Hotchbowie28 on November 5th, 2011 07:59 am (UTC)
Aww, you. It means a lot to me coming from someone who wrote T&T. These two, the way they're created, they just make me a better writer.

Like I said to spinner33, I didn't even think about Heaven/Hell scenario until she/he mentioned it. When I watched that scene, I felt it was more about Prentiss's state of mind at that moment. I think Reid felt more at peace with his death, because he got to confess his sin and all that, while Prentiss was still living the lie. As for Hotch, I took it from his quote at the end of the episode where Foyet was waiting for him in his place, when he said, "Sometimes the day just ends." I always thought that was neat.

Thank you so much. <3

Edited at 2011-11-05 07:59 am (UTC)
blackcat348: evolution/intelligent designblackcat348 on November 5th, 2011 11:58 pm (UTC)
Reid is an atheist, he states it very plainly in the episode, and the reason he never talked about his experiance is that he hasn't come to terms with what he saw and can't explain it.
Owlcat?: CM H/R lovethe_owlcat on November 5th, 2011 12:58 am (UTC)
Lovely! The sex was very hot and the feelings came across beautifully, without getting too sappy.

Bow: CM : H/R close to youbowie28 on November 5th, 2011 07:51 am (UTC)
Haha, finally someone mentioned the porn. Thank you! It was tricky writing porn without making it too porny. More importantly, I'm glad it didn't seem too sappy, what was I was afraid of too. :)
(Anonymous) on November 5th, 2011 06:22 am (UTC)
Beautiful..........simply beautiful...........
Bow: CM : H/R in bathroombowie28 on November 5th, 2011 07:49 am (UTC)
Thank you so much, whoever you are. <3
Jasper: Reid: Hnngjust_jasper on November 5th, 2011 10:59 am (UTC)
Aww that was sweet.
Bow: CM : H/R close to youbowie28 on November 5th, 2011 01:49 pm (UTC)
Thanks so much! Are you JustJasper? I love all your H/R fics on Tumblr. There aren't enough AU CM fanfics out there.

Off topic, I was wondering what happened to your H/R fics on FF.net. I can seem to access any of them now. You see, I run a H/R fic archive as well, and I just want to keep taps on all H/R stories that I can get my hands on. :)

Again, thanks!

Edited at 2011-11-05 01:50 pm (UTC)
Jasper: Hotch: Excuse Mejust_jasper on November 5th, 2011 03:30 pm (UTC)
At one point I was putting all my drabbles up on FFN too, but I decided it was too much and to keep them on tumblr (unless I really wanted to cross-post one or two). All my tumblr drabbles for H/R can be found here: http://justjasper.tumblr.com/tagged/hotchxreid
Bow: CM : H/R close to youbowie28 on November 5th, 2011 03:36 pm (UTC)
Ah, I see. Thanks. :)
daylyn: CM header hotch reid gun stance_flutterbdaylyn on November 6th, 2011 04:05 am (UTC)
Gorgeous. Absolutely gorgeous. One of the things I love about your writing is how you capture the emotional intensity of this relationship. Their need for each other, the lust, the love... just gorgeous. I really needed to read this right now. Thank you.
Bow: CM : H/R with coffeebowie28 on November 6th, 2011 08:47 am (UTC)
Aww, thank you. I needed to write something about these two as well. It's been a while. They still manage to make my day(s).
blueberry_09: dramaqueenblueberry_09 on November 15th, 2011 10:13 am (UTC)
I really missed some good, character focused, unapologetic intense fic.
And as much as I feel a bit sorry for Hotch, I don't think what you see is what you'll surely get. I agree with your explaination.
Always looking for more pieces from you :)
This was amazing. As always.
Bow: CM : H/R close to youbowie28 on February 5th, 2012 09:31 pm (UTC)
Aww, thank you so much. It's been a while since I wrote anything. I'm glad you liked it.
rebak1ttenrebak1tten on February 5th, 2012 08:13 pm (UTC)
Really a lovely, well written story and good sex, too! Great combo.
Bow: CM : H/R must touchbowie28 on February 5th, 2012 09:32 pm (UTC)
Good sex is always appreciated in my fics, lol. Thank you so much for your kind words.